Unexpected Challenges of Awakening
There is a lot of information out there about the challenges of awakening, but this article will give you an idea of some of the less talked about challenges.
Increased awareness - as you become more conscious and the trance of the false self starts to dissipate, you are able to see a lot more of your unconscious patterns. You also get a front row seat to see how your ego operates and what it does to try and keep you asleep. Although it is amazing to have this awareness and crucial to help unpack all the layers of the "me", it does come with its challenges.
As words come out of your mouth, you start to see all the lies and nonsense of the ego. You hear yourself in your mind or out loud: judging, comparing, trying to get power over someone, keeping yourself small and disempowered, criticizing, trying to fix someone, telling yourself how amazing, special, horrible or stupid you are. Gone are the days where you can just go about your day, blissfully unaware of your ego. Instead you have instant and often painful feedback about what you have left to work on, and no break from it.
Ethical dilemmas - you seem to get tied up in strange situations around taking responsibility, and whether or not you should be making decisions for others that are less conscious than you. It helps you to learn about complex lessons to do with truth, compassion, responsibility and ethics. You're often left perplexed and wondering if telling the truth was the kindest and fairest thing to do.
So tired - you start to really notice the weight of carrying around that false self and keeping the identity in place. That past baggage, masks you wear, expectations and conditioning has a felt heaviness to it. The more in tune you get with this false self, the more tired you can feel.
Emotional depth - as you heal and awaken you have a greater capacity to feel deep emotions. It is beautiful to have access to the full range of emotions, but there can be challenges that arise because of this. Where you may have been able to hold down emotions in the past, this becomes less possible perhaps causing you to have to look for work where emotional repression isn't a part of the role. Crying in public at how beautiful or awful something is, becomes a natural way of being.
Awakening in western culture has its challenges. Trying to raise a family and pay the bills while your ego unravels, is not easy. It takes a lot of trust in the divine process and a real willingness to let your life be messy. Once you accept that you will be the outsider, the one people have trouble understanding, the one that is not afraid to express their emotions or speak the truth, then you can make peace with awakening. The less you need to liked or understood by others, the more you are able to surrender to the process.