Unexpected Challenges of Awakening
There is a lot of information out there about the challenges of awakening, but this article will hopefully give you an idea of some of the less talked about challenges.
Increased awareness - as you become more conscious and the trance of the false self starts to dissipate, you are able to see a lot more of the patterns that are running. You also get a front row seat to see how your ego operates and what it does to try and keep you asleep. Although it is amazing to have this awareness and crucial to help unpack all the layers of the "me", it does come with its challenges.
As words come out of your mouth, you start to see all the lies and nonsense of the ego. You hear yourself in your mind or out loud: judging, comparing, trying to get power over someone, keeping yourself small, criticizing, trying to fix someone, telling yourself how amazing or stupid you are. Gone are the days where you can just go about your day, blissfully unaware of the ego. Instead you have instant and often painful feedback about what you have left to work on, and no break from it.
Ethical dilemmas - you seem to get tied up in strange situations around taking responsibility, and whether or not you should be making decisions on behalf of others that are less conscious than you. This helps you to learn about complex lessons to do with truth, compassion, responsibility and ethics. You're often left perplexed and wondering if telling the truth was the kindest and fairest thing to do.
So tired - you start to really notice the weight of carrying around those false stories and keeping the identity in place. That past baggage, masks you wear, expectations and conditioning has a felt heaviness to it, and is exhausting!
Emotional depth - as you heal and awaken you have a greater capacity to feel deep emotions. It is beautiful to have access to the full range of emotions, but there can be challenges that arise because of this. Where you may have been able to hold down emotions in the past, this becomes less possible. Perhaps you may have to change the type of work you do because you're not able to squash those emotions anymore. Crying in public at how beautiful or awful something is, becomes a part of your day.
Awakening in western culture has its unique challenges. Trying to raise a family and pay the bills while your ego unravels, is not easy. It takes a lot of trust in the divine process and a real willingness to let your life be messy. The more you can accept that your life is different to the majority and that people probably aren't going to understand what's happening to you, then you can make peace with awakening.