The Only Benefit to Having Lots of Trauma
So there's a theory that when awakening is going to happen for the first time (it hasn't happened in previous lives) that the soul brings all the karma in to be resolved. In my Vedic astrology my soul planet is in Pisces which has the same meaning, and it certainly feels like I've been healing a lot of karma.
Lots of karma = lots of trauma = the trauma awakening path
This typically presents as a difficult childhood with a substantial amount of early childhood trauma, which then manifests into a challenging adult life. Difficulties in relationships, finances, illness, and ongoing traumatic life events such as divorce, accidents and death. Sound fun, right??
You quickly realise that the more you heal your trauma, the more the separate self lets go. You start to access the peace and joy of your true nature, perhaps for the first time in your life. You see that there is no other option, other than to release all the trauma.
This was my awakening path and this is what I discovered:
You're motivated to let go of the story of you. As life is most likely continually challenging, it's easy to want to let go of that and steer towards Truth. If you enjoy your life it is a lot harder to let go of it.
Having a lot of trauma in your lifetime makes you brave. You have likely had to face some terrible situations and kept surviving and doing your best. This built strength and courage which means when you come across some of the more challenging parts of awakening, such as facing existential fear, you'll be well equipped to dive in.
It's often a much faster awakening path than others - you get through the layers of the false self quickly, once you've committed to healing all your trauma.
You most likely have a lot of compassion and empathy if you've struggled most of your life. You understand pain and feel the suffering in others and the world. This is a great benefit for the heart opening part of awakening, that leads to living from Unity.
It's intense and tiring. Once you've committed to healing and understand that it is your way to liberation, you can be in for an intense emotional ride. Once the lid has been taken off and the healing has began, it seems to just keep arising to be seen and healed, layer after layer. This can take a toll on your health and mental wellbeing, but can be managed by good self care.
Other people may struggle to understand your pathway, even if they have been through an awakening themselves. It is a very different path to the other awakening journeys and has its unique challenges. An example is that a meditation teacher that doesn't understand trauma, may not be able to assist you if trauma arises during the meditation.
The intersection between trauma and awakening is still quite a new area as far as content and teachers are concerned. If you want to learn about meditation or Buddhism you have many options, but the trauma path to enlightenment is one of the lesser understood pathways. A lot of the awakening content out there may not be relevant for you if you're on this path.
If I had my time again and I got to choose which pathway to do, I would actually choose this one. Although it is painful working through so much karma and trauma, it is an efficient and effective way to let go of the one who suffers.