Don't Fit In
We're conditioned to believe we need to be someone, we need to be successful and achieve certain goals in life. If we don't conform then we feel like an outsider, or feel like we're weird or rebellious. We may feel an urge to find our authentic self - who am I really? Why am I here?
It is painful to be told who we are and what we should be doing. We can have an intuitive sense that it shouldn't be this way, that we are not a replica of our parents, or another robot in the system. We feel that we are different and perhaps don't fit in to our community or family.
Although it is painful to feel like this, it can also be a gift - a grace. It gives you the opportunity to question what is real. The feeling of apathy, depression or disappointment in life, is a gateway to something deeper - an opportunity to live from your true nature. If you're settled into society and happy to conform, you won't have a reason to ask what is true. So if you're not a conformist human just going through the motions of life, who are you?
If you take a look for that "me" you believe yourself to be - that self with ideas, hopes, fears, a past and a future, what do you find? Where is that self that suffers, always wanting more of the good and resisting anything uncomfortable? Why is it that when we search for "me" we find nothing? This is not just a hint, but an ultimate truth. Digging into this enquiry and experiencing the nothing that is hiding in plain sight, opens up a lifelong quest for truth - an unbelievable journey.
“The question 'Who am I?' is not really meant to get an answer, the question 'Who am I?' is meant to dissolve the questioner.”
― Ramana Maharshi